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39: i'm not sure

i haven't blogged in a while.

i've noticed that.

ever since i got my cough, i didn't blog.

i'm not sure what i want to do.

but heroes is freakin out.

epicc.

OMGOMGOMG YES.

SANTIAGO

SANTIAGO

YESYESYES.:D

bai.

38: Halloween + NaNoWriMo!

Happy Halloween! Today was fun! The picture above was just SOME of the people at the party. It was epic crazy. It made really tired though. :/ I won't be able to stay up so late to start NaNoWriMo then.

Yes, I am doing NaNoWriMo with a lot of other people. My idea is below. Don't steal it please. DD:! IF YOU DO I WILL SHOOT YOU.

"""A young girl, roughly seventeen or eighteen, has always been known for her outstanding, unique talent in the arts. She was quiet, always quiet. Always obeyed rules. But there was this party, and she risks it all. She breaks all the rules. The next morning, her life, reputation, everything is ruined. So the next thing she knows, she is on a transatlantic flight to London. She doesn’t know anyone in London, but her fascination with the location has always known that is where she would go. She has nothing except her suitcase and art supplies. She tries to get a flat, but it’s too expensive, so she gets a little apartment in the suburbs of London. She doesn’t have any money to give her a stable life, so she has horrible living conditions, much worse than the ones back home in Omaha. She paints and photographs things, trying to sell her arts for at least some money. When that doesn’t work, she actually goes to look for a job. The girl finds a few jobs, and applies to them. She gets a job as a waitress and gets very low pay, but enough to support her bills and some food. Her manager and coworkers soon notices her arts when they come to her apartment for a small get together. The manager asks to hang her works in the restaurant, and offers many pounds. This man who comes from Manchester notices her paintings. He starts to fall in love with this girl who he thinks he knows because of her paintings. Although, he never knows whom this girl is. Later on, this same man is throwing a masquerade party, and has the restaurant that the girl works at cater the party. As the party goes on, the girl goes out to cater for the party, handing out appetizers. As she is bored, she doodles on a napkin and signs it, just leaving it on the table. This man sees it, and calls for her. Not knowing where his mysterious artist is. He looks all over during the party, not knowing who he was looking for."""

37.

I'm losing confidence in myself.

36: Tuesday, October 28th.

Today's Tuesday, and I feel like blogging. It's actually way too early to be blogging about my day. It's 8:09 in the morning, so, I probably won't finish this until later. I'm in homeroom currently. A place I'd rather not be. I'd rather be at home. Or, in fact, in Oregon where Adam and Kimmi are meeting the vlogbrothers. I shouldn't be too jealous, I hopefully get to meet them in a few weeks. Truthfully, I think I'd rather be anywhere but here.

I finished Paper Towns a few nights ago and I cried. Like literal tears down my cheeks. After I closed the book when I finished it, I looked back at my life. I actually could see how much my life is a wreck, and how much I really want to change that. Sometimes I wonder if I'm just another "paper girl" in a "paper world".

I really hate having so many depressing blogs. I should try to cheer it up a bit, although I'm not sure if I can. It all depends on my willingness to do so, and the day it is. Hm.

Sport Skills: It wasn't anything special. Just my first class. Played flag football. I suck.

Advanced Algebra: Writing Prompt. WTFX?!

Lit Honours Large Group: Poetry. :]

Photography 1: Printed photos

Open: Talked with peoples.

Spanish: Read a story and did PQAs

Open: Mr. Fauss' room. It was awesome

Earth/Space Science: Lab

Mass Communication: Boring as usual. Talking about our In Class Essay for tomorrow. :/

Yeah today went very slow, I'm glad I only have ten minutes left for today. 

I realized how to get on msn via google on these 

laptops, and now I'm talking to the infamous charlieskies. I love talking to him.

Oh, Adam and I created the land of Adamzon. He can go into more detail about it, and I'm too lazy to write much more here. Maybe a new blog will come up with all that is of Adamzon. :]

Well, the bell rings in five minutes. I'm so excited to go home. :]

xoxo ttfn. 

35: Here we are again

So. I have something important to say.

Not really, but today was pretty rad.

In Sport Skills I almost caught a fly ball when it was kicked. (playing kickball) and well, I missed and it hit my face. AND IT HURT. and then I got the ball, threw it to first, and got the guy out. Laughing and crying the whole time because I couldn't believe it.

And now I'm in Earth/Space Science and reading Paper Towns.

"The book listed hundreds of attractions you could visit, from the largest ball of twine in Darwin, Minnesota, to the world's largest ball of stamps in Omaha, Nebraska." (Green 174)

Okay. WHAT THE HELL.

I LIVE in Omaha, and I've NEVER heard of this. Could John Green be making this up? I must find out, and then go to the Ames, Iowa gathering, and tell him.

It really intrigues me.

That is all.

xoxo

34: Today.

I'm wearing an American Eagle hoodie today. Every time I wear this, I think of Adam. (youraverage) I think of him because he wears American Eagle. And because I sincerely believe he has a hoodie much like this one. I'll take a photo and put it in here after school today. 

I really wish I could get on twitter today. I want to talks to muh buddies. :[ But not, school decides to block all the good proxies so I could get on twitter. Why twitter is blocked, I have the slightest.

Well, I'm going to drink my diet wild cherry pepsi and sit in homeroom reading paper towns.

(half way through :D!)

xoxo - bridgiez.

33: I have so much homework.

I'm going to do it all tonight.

All of it.

Every single piece of it.

Even if it's due three weeks from now.

• I'm going to do it and get it over with.
  
• I'm sick of not getting it done.
  
• I'm sick of missing assignments.
  
• I'm sick of staying up late to get things done.
  
• I'm sick of being behind.
  
• I'm sick of myself.

So, if you see me online, and in an online state, please ask what I'm doing.

I'm sick of this, and I need to change.

Even if this means missing amazing epic skype calls.

Even if it means missing blogtv shows. (which I really will be depressed about)

I'm done. 

Time to pop some tictacs for solace.

On a lighter note...

Adam says: WAIT
bridget says: O.O
bridget says: WUT?
Adam says: BRIDGIEZ
Adam says: WE GOTTA CROSS THE STREET
Adam says: hold muh hand for safeties
Adam says: - hand -
bridget says: HOKAY -hand holding-
Adam says: - walk -
bridget says: -walkwalkwalk-
Adam says: k we r safez

That is only one part of the amazing conversations of Adam and I.

xoxo-bridget

32: no longer.

i no longer have train tracks.
i no longer have to be a braceface.
i no longer have to be self-conscious when i smile.
i can smile freely.

i'm so excited.
my life is content.
thank you.

chago says i look like a squirrel in this photo.
alicia at my school says i have a lisp.

i guess we'll find out on skype/videos, right?

31: something about you makes me scream.

I have one more day until no more braceface. I'm so flipping excited. today is my last day with them. I really want to know how I survived two years with these monstrosities...if that's even a word.

I can't wait to eat oodles upon oodles of candies from Halloween. I decided I'm not going Trick-er-Treating this year. My first year not doing going. I plan to stay home and just eat the candies from our bowl and then keep whatever is left. I still plan on blaring Maniac and dressing really awesome-like. I mean, why not? It's the only day you can dress up as anything you want and get away with it.

I miss summer.

I can't wait for next summer. It's going to be FANTASTIC. I really want to go to Georgia, and I got parent permission. We just need the money to send me there. Jasmine and I are planning on flying down together, and her mum is a travel agent, so we might get plane tickets cheaper. But when I'm in Georgia, yeah sure, I'll see my cousins which I only get to see once er twice a year, but I'll possibly get to see Leah and Zach! :D How amazing is that? And then I'll be able to hang out with Jasmine as well. It'll be epic.

And then, I don't know if we're going to Oregon this summer or not. But if we are, I hope it's over the time of the NW Gathering. I don't know how I'd be able to convince my parents to let me go to it, but I'd have to try.

Yeah, whatevs. Summer is a whole three forths of the year away. Now, all we have to do is wait. <3

xoxo.

30: i've never dreamt the dreams i'm dreamin' now.

charlieskies made my day today. we talked a lot today, and it was tons of fun. i love talking to that kid. he makes me smile.

charlie says: is it odd
charlie says: that my favourite show is the O C
charlie says: and my favourite music is Owl City
bridget says: I think you are obsessed with those two letters.
charlie says: Ovary Clips
bridget says: Orange Clappers
charlie says: Old Cement
bridget says: Ocean Crayfish
charlie says: Octopus Cytoplasm
bridget says: Open College
charlie says: Oh Clearly
bridget says: Oprah Cleans
charlie says: Orange Clogs
bridget says: Outstanding Charlie
charlie says: Outwitted Cleverly
bridget says: Ostentatious Cars
charlie says: Oh Crap
bridget says: Oh Charlie xD
charlie says: Obviously Confused
bridget says: Okay, clothes? (IDK?)
charlie says: Oil Clovers
bridget says: Are we done?
charlie says: i think we are
charlie says: that was fun

today was a good day because of that. otherwise, it wasn't too good. i couldn't find Paper Towns at Walmart. (My mum won't take me to Borders, wtfbbq i know.) and my mum wouldn't let me go to the last home football game. which is kinda lame, but whatever.


ahh, yeah. hopefully tomorrow is better. baibai.

xoxo.

29: I wish.

I wish I could come out with every worry, every secret, every heartbroken emotion I have.

I can't.

It's so much easier said than done.

I wish I wasn't so fragile. 

That way, my friends wouldn't have to pick up my pieces.

Truthfully, sometimes I wonder if my whole life is a dream. 

Then I wonder whose it is, and if they are enjoying it.

I wish people around me understood.

I secretly wish I never saw Post-Secret. It makes me feel inferior of myself. :/

This is odd. 

Goodnight.

xoxo -bridget.

28: Homecoming

I wasn't planning on going. but I went...

And had fun.

Chago is a lovely dancer. We had many nice dances. Zach stole me though during Crank That. But alls fair in love and war. :] I danced with Jimmy, and I was like "o_o love." He's awesome.

Hmm. They played Miley. I was mad. But they played a lot of good songs to make up for it. Like Disturbia and My Girl and some Grease songs. My requests didn't get played, but whatev. :/
A very lovely evening I much conclude.

Ooooh, the homecoming king/queen. I knew the queen would be Chaeli. But the king D: I wanted it to be Evan. But noooooooooooooooooooooooo. It had to be the stupid quarterback. Lame. Evan is cooler. He is making ALLLLL of the Romeo and Juliet costumes for this year's play. But that's that.

Chago, I had fun with you tonight. We're going to Winter Formal together, yes? I sure do hope so. :]

xoxo - bridg

[11:23:28 PM] Chago says: lmao o rly?
[11:23:36 PM] Chago says: i left my circle of dance friends
[11:23:41 PM] Chago says: and was like
[11:23:47 PM] Chago says: "i'm gonna dance alone for a bit"
[11:23:50 PM] Chago says: that was you, lmao.


I love you Chago.

27: You're a freaaaak.

Chago says:
well
Chago says:
at least you aren't in a series for five seconds before you're killed off.
Chago says:
oh wait..
bridget says:
...fuck you.


thanks. x]

26: I'm lost.

I can’t see myself going to homecoming dance. I don’t want to go, yet I do. It’s one of those mixed feeling things, because I feel as if something bad will happen if I go. I can’t see myself having a good time. I don’t have a dress. Well, I do, but it’s my old ones. Maybe my mom can tailor one of my sister’s old dresses. I think that would be cute. But with two days to do it, I don’t think so. I don’t think I am going for the sole reason that I won’t have so much fun.

I’ve noticed I’ve been focusing on my grades more this year. And I’ve been trying to give myself a future, even if it doesn’t seem like it. Yes, I’m slacking a bit, but I’m still trying to get into the swing of things. (Yes, even with three months into school.) This year is nothing like last year. I can’t breeze through my classes and half-ass everything. I actually have to think and do things. I’m trying not to mooch of friends. It’s hard, but I’m doing somewhat well.

I’ve decided I’m not staying up so late anymore, unless it’s break. I’m so tired at school, and I don’t get work done. It’s just a hassle so, I find it smarter. I’ve also been going to the IMCs, which I rarely did last year. I’m using my time efficiently, (mostly). I’m really trying to straighten myself up. At school at least

I haven’t finished my written component for earth/space science that I’m rewriting. I’m turning that in tomorrow since he said I could revise it and get a few points back. I can turn it in during one of my open mods. I’m open like all day tomorrow anyway.

I wish I could rant about things like this at school. We had to rant about anything that “grinds our gears” in World History today. I couldn’t think of anything, so I just ranted about how people need to be more open about people’s backgrounds. It was actually really short and fast. I hated myself for just speeding though it.

I need to figure out which photo is my favourite and best out of the set of 139 photos I took on Tuesday. It’s for my out of school photography class. It gets judged by a world known photographer!

My best friend is mad at me. I don’t know what to say except it’s utterly inane on his reason. He thinks I put my online friends before my real ones. First, I think he should be happy I have friends in other places than this stupid city or state. And, he should know I don’t put them ahead. I never have. Just because I talk about them, doesn’t mean I put them ahead. And, since they are ONLINE friends, I can’t really talk to them anywhere else but ONLINE. So chances are, if I’m online, I possibly am talking to them. That doesn’t mean they are put ahead.

Also, concerning that. I don’t understand how he inferred online friends from me saying I was going to do my homework and watch heroes in a conversation that was I guess “serious” even though it basically was a big put-down at the end to myself. It kind of irks me. And the whole message tomorrow saying, “You’re too busy for anything.”, irked me too. Really. Did he think I was with online friends? No. I would have responded four hours earlier if I was. I was actually gone. Actually out of my house. Having a life. I’m sorry if I wasn’t allowed.

Speaking of “lives”. Really, half my life is on the computer. And when I actually go into daylight with my IRL friends, and have a life, why am I the bad guy when I’m not there when an online or another IRL friend needed me? I don’t get it. I’m sorry I am having fun away from my computer. It is possible. I did go a whole week without one. (Considering I had no power the day I got back from the trip without internet access or a computer access.)

This is a big rant, but I guess I deserve to put one up. A lot of my blogs have been low-key. I just needed to get everything off my chest. Especially since one night turned my whole week to shit. Thanks.

I do wish I was different sometimes. I do wish my online friends realised they probably wouldn’t like me if they knew me IRL. I’m afraid to meet them for that reason. I want to meet them, but there are those things. I’m such a weird person. I don’t understand myself at times.

I’m done. Really.
Sorry for this rant/rave. I needed it off my chest.

xoxo –bridget.

25: sick of fancy titles.

I've been watching 'The Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy" for the past few nights, and I finished it tonight. It reminds me of how much I love the film. I think it's about time I go pick up that book and read it. Speaking of books, there are a few books I"m looking on getting.
1) Betrayed by P.C Cast + Kristin Cast.
2) An Abundunce of Katherines by John Green.
3) Looking for Alaska by John Green.
4) Paper Towns by John Green. (when it comes out.)

I feel so out of the loop about John Green's books, so I need to read them. Like certainly. 

I also have been writing a lot. Two stories currently. I like the titles of them :>

http://somethinguntitled.blogspot.com/
http://words-expressed.blogspot.com/

You don't have to check them out, but if you want to, whatever go ahead. But if you do, please leave comments! I love comments. :D

xoxo bridget.

[ t w e n t y f o u r ]

sometimes i feel international.

[ t w e n t y t h r e e ]

[19:42] a_macinnis_08@hotmail.com: lwccs
[19:43] lumberjack sam.: who is this?
[19:44] a_macinnis_08@hotmail.com: nvm i thought you where my friend sam and im and i subscribed to you on youtube
[19:44] lumberjack sam.: oh. okay.

I love these days.

[ t w e n t y t w o ] Crash and Burn.

When you feel all alone
And the world has turned its back on you
Give me a moment please to tame your wild wild heart
I know you feel like the walls are closing in on you
Its hard to find relief and people can be so cold
When darkness is upon your door and you feel like you cant take anymore

Let me be the one you call
If you jump Ill break your fall
Lift you up and fly away with you into the night
If you need to fall apart
I can mend a broken heart
If you need to crash then crash and burn
Youre not alone

When you feel all alone
And a loyal friend is hard to find
Youre caught in a one way street
With the monsters in your head
When hopes and dreams are far away and
You feel like you cant face the day

Let me be the one you call
If you jump Ill break your fall
Lift you up and fly away with you into the night
If you need to fall apart
I can mend a broken heart
If you need to crash then crash and burn
Youre not alone

And there has always been heartache and pain
And when its over youll breathe again
Youll breath again

When you feel all alone
And the world has turned its back on you
Give me a moment please
To tame your wild wild heart

Let me be the one you call
If you jump Ill break your fall
Lift you up and fly away with you into the night
If you need to fall apart
I can mend a broken heart
If you need to crash then crash and burn
Youre not alone

[ t w e n t y o n e ]

I love love love my haircut.

[ t w e n t y ] .5

All the lovely names from skype chat with Kimmi, Chago, Justin, Vivien, and Leah.

[9/21/2008 10:26:22 PM] Leah says: LL cool chago
[9/21/2008 10:26:36 PM] Leah says: earth, wind, and chago
[9/21/2008 10:26:48 PM] Bridget says: all time chago
[9/21/2008 10:26:50 PM] Leah says: Alvin and the chagos
[9/21/2008 10:27:10 PM] Leah says: daddy chago
[9/21/2008 10:27:12 PM] Bridget says: chago and the pussycats.
[9/21/2008 10:27:13 PM] vivien says: you dont muff me anymore
[9/21/2008 10:27:14 PM] Chago says: :|
[9/21/2008 10:27:20 PM] Chago says: baby don't muff me
[9/21/2008 10:27:21 PM] Leah says: chago punk
[9/21/2008 10:27:23 PM] Chago says: no more
[9/21/2008 10:27:23 PM] Chago says: don't muff me
[9/21/2008 10:27:24 PM] vivien says: pussy cat chagos
[9/21/2008 10:27:32 PM] vivien says: WHAT IS MUFF
[9/21/2008 10:27:44 PM] Leah says: enrique chagolesias
[9/21/2008 10:28:04 PM] Leah says: flo chago
[9/21/2008 10:28:13 PM] vivien says: lil chagz
[9/21/2008 10:28:20 PM] Chago says: leahstein
[9/21/2008 10:28:24 PM] Bridget says: Go Crash Chago
[9/21/2008 10:28:34 PM] Chago says: the devil wears bridget
[9/21/2008 10:28:42 PM] Leah says: jesse mcchagotney
[9/21/2008 10:28:54 PM] Justin says: Transviviens
[9/21/2008 10:29:06 PM] Leah says: jump little chagos
[9/21/2008 10:29:10 PM] Bridget says: coheed and chagita
[9/21/2008 10:29:12 PM] Leah says: jimmy eat chago
[9/21/2008 10:29:13 PM] Chago says: iron justin
[9/21/2008 10:29:26 PM] vivien says: as i lay chago
[9/21/2008 10:29:26 PM] Chago says: owl leah
[9/21/2008 10:29:33 PM] Leah says: jonas chaggerz
[9/21/2008 10:29:35 PM] Bridget says: nevershoutkimmi
[9/21/2008 10:29:43 PM] Chago says: bridget montana
[9/21/2008 10:29:46 PM] vivien says: kanye west.
[9/21/2008 10:29:48 PM] Justin says: Bridget chago and the kimmi of leah
[9/21/2008 10:29:51 PM] Bridget says: the academy chago
[9/21/2008 10:30:01 PM] Bridget says: chago carter
[9/21/2008 10:30:21 PM] Leah says: MI Chago
[9/21/2008 10:30:26 PM] Leah says: Machago
[9/21/2008 10:30:32 PM] Bridget says: Chago Eyes
[9/21/2008 10:30:38 PM] Leah says: mariah chagey
[9/21/2008 10:30:41 PM] Justin says: Bridget chago and the kimmi of viven leah
[9/21/2008 10:30:41 PM] Bridget says: Chago Lavigne
[9/21/2008 10:30:50 PM] Bridget says: Armor for Justin
[9/21/2008 10:30:52 PM] Leah says: MC Chagger
[9/21/2008 10:30:58 PM] Chago says: leahmore
[9/21/2008 10:30:58 PM] Bridget says: August Burns Kimmi
[9/21/2008 10:31:15 PM] Chago says: from leah to bridget
[9/21/2008 10:31:15 PM] Bridget says: Chagoseat GoodLeah
[9/21/2008 10:31:22 PM] Leah says: new chagos on the block
[9/21/2008 10:31:29 PM] Kimmi says: OMG. I've been selected to win a free macbook air.
[9/21/2008 10:31:34 PM] Bridget says: Chago likes Whitney.
[9/21/2008 10:31:34 PM] vivien says: LOL
[9/21/2008 10:31:40 PM] Bridget says: (boyslikegirls ftw)
[9/21/2008 10:31:43 PM] Leah says: chago and the whale
[9/21/2008 10:31:52 PM] Chago says: secret and bridget
[9/21/2008 10:31:53 PM] Leah says: OneChago
[9/21/2008 10:31:53 PM] Bridget says: Breathe Vivolina.
[9/21/2008 10:32:08 PM] Bridget says: Chago Underwood
[9/21/2008 10:32:09 PM] Chago says: vivoin
[9/21/2008 10:32:09 PM] Leah says: the postal chago
[9/21/2008 10:32:18 PM] vivien says: black eyed chagos
[9/21/2008 10:32:21 PM] Bridget says: A Change of Viv
[9/21/2008 10:32:25 PM] Leah says: rascal chagoats
[9/21/2008 10:32:30 PM] Justin says: The Vivien chago
[9/21/2008 10:32:40 PM] Bridget says: Chagodos
[9/21/2008 10:32:50 PM] Leah says: ScarChago
[9/21/2008 10:33:05 PM] Bridget says: Daphne Loves Chago
[9/21/2008 10:33:06 PM] Chago says: flyleah
[9/21/2008 10:33:20 PM] vivien says: get chago. wear leah. justin
[9/21/2008 10:33:27 PM] Bridget says: Vivien is my Middle Chago
[9/21/2008 10:33:36 PM] Chago says: midviv
[9/21/2008 10:33:38 PM] Leah says: three 6 chagia
[9/21/2008 10:33:44 PM] Bridget says: vivienforce
[9/21/2008 10:33:48 PM] Chago says: jimmy eat bridget
[9/21/2008 10:33:52 PM] Bridget says: chagoescence
[9/21/2008 10:34:00 PM] Bridget says: fall out justin
[9/21/2008 10:34:05 PM] vivien says: vivien0010
[9/21/2008 10:34:15 PM] Bridget says: family force leah
[9/21/2008 10:34:16 PM] Justin says: Brigse
[9/21/2008 10:34:22 PM] vivien says: bridget 182
[9/21/2008 10:34:23 PM] Leah says: aretha chagolin
[9/21/2008 10:34:27 PM] Chago says: kicktheleah
[9/21/2008 10:34:37 PM] Justin says: thatleah
[9/21/2008 10:34:38 PM] Chago says: shutupbridget
[9/21/2008 10:34:38 PM] Bridget says: amazingbridget
[9/21/2008 10:34:41 PM] vivien says: LIVELAVAVIV
[9/21/2008 10:34:43 PM] Bridget says: chagorage
[9/21/2008 10:34:47 PM] vivien says: youraverageviv
[9/21/2008 10:34:49 PM] Leah says: thechago88
[9/21/2008 10:34:57 PM] Bridget says: rockinbluebridget
[9/21/2008 10:34:58 PM] Justin says: kimmiofshinshine
[9/21/2008 10:35:04 PM] Leah says: littlebridget
[9/21/2008 10:35:05 PM] vivien says: leahontv88
[9/21/2008 10:35:09 PM] Bridget says: bridgetdurham19
[9/21/2008 10:35:11 PM] Chago says: kimmibravener
[9/21/2008 10:35:15 PM] Justin says: chagocadet
[9/21/2008 10:35:23 PM] Leah says: chagolew
[9/21/2008 10:35:24 PM] Bridget says: booleah37
[9/21/2008 10:35:27 PM] vivien says: vivienissocoollike
[9/21/2008 10:35:31 PM] Chago says: vivoldey
[9/21/2008 10:35:34 PM] Bridget says: bridgetmon
[9/21/2008 10:35:43 PM] Kimmi says: chagogoestocollege
[9/21/2008 10:35:45 PM] Bridget says: viviendays
[9/21/2008 10:35:49 PM] Justin says: vivienly00
[9/21/2008 10:35:50 PM] Leah says: 3sixty5chagos
[9/21/2008 10:35:55 PM] Bridget says: bridgetoakley
[9/21/2008 10:36:03 PM] Leah says: chagchag158
[9/21/2008 10:36:05 PM] Bridget says: sxechago
[9/21/2008 10:36:09 PM] vivien says: vivienboyz
[9/21/2008 10:36:09 PM] Chago says: thenameischago
[9/21/2008 10:36:16 PM] Bridget says: 5awesomechagos
[9/21/2008 10:36:17 PM] Leah says: halfchaggishguy
[9/21/2008 10:36:32 PM] vivien says: littleviv
[9/21/2008 10:36:35 PM] Justin says: chash
[9/21/2008 10:36:37 PM] Leah says: chagoontop
[9/21/2008 10:36:37 PM] Bridget says: kimmisopinion
[9/21/2008 10:36:50 PM] Chago says: bridgetrickman
[9/21/2008 10:36:51 PM] Justin says: Kimd
[9/21/2008 10:36:52 PM] Bridget says: RosyDyerMedia
[9/21/2008 10:36:56 PM] Leah says: alwayschagoback
[9/21/2008 10:37:07 PM] Chago says: kimmioctopus
[9/21/2008 10:37:10 PM] Bridget says: chagofight
[9/21/2008 10:37:10 PM] Leah says: italktochagos
[9/21/2008 10:37:11 PM] vivien says: nigachiga
[9/21/2008 10:37:15 PM] Justin says: LCSbridget
[9/21/2008 10:37:22 PM] Chago says: vivrage
[9/21/2008 10:37:33 PM] Bridget says: unchagiven11
[9/21/2008 10:37:34 PM] Chago says: justinnova
[9/21/2008 10:37:46 PM] Bridget says: justinxbinks
[9/21/2008 10:37:46 PM] Leah says: littlemissvivien
[9/21/2008 10:37:50 PM] Chago says: bridgetneedaeaseonup
[9/21/2008 10:37:56 PM] Bridget says: kimmineedsfootbadly
[9/21/2008 10:37:57 PM] Leah says: chagochordal
[9/21/2008 10:38:00 PM] Chago says: whataboutleah
[9/21/2008 10:38:01 PM] Justin says: chagoasteraki
[9/21/2008 10:38:07 PM] Bridget says: residentvivhuba
[9/21/2008 10:38:22 PM] Chago says: cadegoestoleah
[9/21/2008 10:38:24 PM] Bridget says: musicfromvivskies
[9/21/2008 10:38:24 PM] Justin says: feelinekimmi
[9/21/2008 10:38:28 PM] vivien says: vivienoakley
[9/21/2008 10:38:46 PM] Chago says: barbedleah324
[9/21/2008 10:38:47 PM] Leah says: chagurry17
[9/21/2008 10:38:47 PM] Bridget says: aceofchago101
[9/21/2008 10:39:00 PM] vivien says: itsleah010
[9/21/2008 10:39:02 PM] Justin says: vivienboyz
[9/21/2008 10:39:02 PM] Bridget says: epiphachized
[9/21/2008 10:39:05 PM] Leah says: chagossayhooot
[9/21/2008 10:39:09 PM] Chago says: kokimmiforest
[9/21/2008 10:39:20 PM] Bridget says: imustbeCHAGO
[9/21/2008 10:39:25 PM] Justin says: sincerelyleah
[9/21/2008 10:39:35 PM] Leah says: randomchaginc
[9/21/2008 10:39:37 PM] Bridget says: inaleahtown50
[9/21/2008 10:39:38 PM] Chago says: vivburry17
[9/21/2008 10:39:41 PM] Justin says: KoolVivien
[9/21/2008 10:39:45 PM] Bridget says: italktochago
[9/21/2008 10:39:57 PM] Bridget says: jlcproductions
[9/21/2008 10:40:01 PM] Chago says: kimkim158
[9/21/2008 10:40:18 PM] Bridget says: chagzofsunshine
[9/21/2008 10:40:31 PM] Chago says: therockinbridgets
[9/21/2008 10:40:44 PM] Bridget says: monleah150
[9/21/2008 10:40:57 PM] Bridget says: omgleahpus
[9/21/2008 10:41:00 PM] Leah says: hayleygchagger
[9/21/2008 10:41:05 PM] Chago says: vivshoe37
[9/21/2008 10:41:09 PM] Bridget says: chagalew
[9/21/2008 10:41:20 PM] Leah says: colormechago
[9/21/2008 10:41:26 PM] Bridget says: whatthechagz
[9/21/2008 10:41:35 PM] Chago says: bridgetneedsfoodbadly
[9/21/2008 10:41:57 PM] Bridget says: omgvivienrocks
[9/21/2008 10:41:59 PM] Chago says: themysteryjustin
[9/21/2008 10:42:08 PM] Leah says: my fave is still halfchaggishguy
[9/21/2008 10:42:21 PM] Chago says: leahloka
[9/21/2008 10:42:26 PM] Bridget says: rawrchabbie
[9/21/2008 10:42:36 PM] Bridget says: thenameisleah
[9/21/2008 10:42:38 PM] Chago says: bridgetskies
[9/21/2008 10:42:39 PM] Leah says: xchagomindedx
[9/21/2008 10:42:40 PM] Bridget says: thatleah
[9/21/2008 10:42:52 PM] Bridget says: swiftkaratevivien
[9/21/2008 10:43:03 PM] Chago says: amazingviv
[9/21/2008 10:43:03 PM] Leah says: longsmellybridget
[9/21/2008 10:43:05 PM] Bridget says: thiscityischago
[9/21/2008 10:43:47 PM] Bridget says: lealldabeast88883333
[9/21/2008 10:44:03 PM] Bridget says: thetableforchago
[9/21/2008 10:44:20 PM] Chago says: communityleah
[9/21/2008 10:44:34 PM] Chago says: bridgetjumba ;D
[9/21/2008 10:44:37 PM] Leah says: feellinechago
[9/21/2008 10:44:38 PM] Kimmi says: hyperbunnyjustin
[9/21/2008 10:44:49 PM] Leah says: wherethereschago
[9/21/2008 10:44:49 PM] Bridget says: kimmicancer
[9/21/2008 10:44:51 PM] Chago says: disneyjustin1
[9/21/2008 10:45:12 PM] Chago says: cutewithkimmi
[9/21/2008 10:45:19 PM] Bridget says: fueledbybridget
[9/21/2008 10:45:24 PM] Leah says: chagodential247
[9/21/2008 10:45:32 PM] Chago says: leohsh
[9/21/2008 10:45:36 PM] Bridget says: shotzvivz
[9/21/2008 10:45:49 PM] Bridget says: chagginbandit13
[9/21/2008 10:45:53 PM] Chago says: vivzned
[9/21/2008 10:45:59 PM] Bridget says: chalts
[9/21/2008 10:46:17 PM] Chago says: omgmkimzrocks
[9/21/2008 10:46:28 PM] Bridget says: chagolilies
[9/21/2008 10:46:36 PM] Chago says: itsbridgetcrocker
[9/21/2008 10:47:05 PM] Chago says: wallofleah
[9/21/2008 10:47:05 PM] Bridget says: chade376
[9/21/2008 10:47:11 PM] Chago says: ahahaha
[9/21/2008 10:47:18 PM] Bridget says: chagandviv
[9/21/2008 10:47:25 PM] Bridget says: VivLoka
[9/21/2008 10:47:41 PM] Chago says: venivianprincess
[9/21/2008 10:47:52 PM] Bridget says: leahxxlou
[9/21/2008 10:48:23 PM] Chago says: bridgetbrothers
[9/21/2008 10:48:35 PM] Chago says: justintrippy

[ t w e n t y ]

So, yesterday was like, really fun. I woke up, and played sims for a bit. Then I got to go shopping. I got some really nice, new clothing. I'm happy. When I got back from shopping, Adam was live! So I went and watched him, it was a grand time. After that, I chilled, and got onto skype for a bit with Wit, Chagz, and Vivvy. It wasn't long because my call got dropped and Wit couldn't add me back in because skype killed her computer. And Cade was live! So I went to watch him. I had OPS in his room. I was shocked. Especially with him being CADEGOESTOCOLLEGE. I mean, I know I shouldn't fangirl anymore over him since I've talked to him before, but still. It's Cade. How can you NOT fangirl over him?

But all in all, in the end of Cade's blogtv show, there was an ops war. It was something that made my day. Except for the fact Davey kicked Kimmi :<. But Vivien kicked Davey after that. WOO! In the end, Leah won the chat survivor. Kimmi, Justin, Chago, Vivien, Leah, and I all went over to skype afterwards and we ended up adding our names to other people's usernames. I'll be posting that up later, I swear. I have to sort through it all and make it somewhat actually readable x]. My favourite out of all of them was kimmicancer (kimmi + feellinecancer) for sure. It's such one of those myspace names, haha. 

Well, I'm in Photo 1 currently, I turned in all my work, so I really have nothing to do but this. I really want Twitter on my phone, but I don't have texting, so there is no point right now.

And it's raining. I love rain. Problem is, it's dark, and I hate when it's dark and raining. It makes me feel like I'm in a horror movie.

But yeaaaaah. I might go browse around and read some blog.

[ n i n e t e e n ]

You know you're weird and totally into YouTube inside jokes when you end up doing this on your assignment for Spanish class.

[ e i g h t e e n ] : .5

It's 12:16 AM.

And I'm still writing this Literature Honours summary/analysis over the last four chapters of To Kill A Mockingbird.

Someone please put a bullet through my head.

*I DIDN'T EVEN READ.* How is one supposed to get this?!

-fail-

[ e i g h t e e n ]

This blog has no meaning. I'm writing because I have nothing better to do in my photo class today. I really don't. It's quite sad. I am too lazy to go out and take some photos right now. And that is why I'm writing this now. I'm also videotaping this. I don't know why. There is no point. Maybe that's my theme for my next video. No point. Good idea, yes?

I haven't been on skype in a while. I mean, I have, just not in a call. I miss it. But, I live, yes. I've chatted a lot with Chaagz and Vivkitty. It's been epic. Chaagz! Oh, I had something to tell you. But I forgets. It's not like you read this anyway.

Eleven minutes.

Eleven minutes.

Get me out.

I want out of class. Actually, I want out of school.

I want to play sims.

I want to make drama in the town. 

I mean, Charlie's gonna die soon anyway, so Vivien will have to take care of four kids. How scary, even though two of them (Chagz and Rosy) are going to university soon. Vivien will be a widow. She needs a new man. A YOUNGER man. Like...Adam! And so he will be her husband. They will meet. Love at first sight. Charlie is going to die from "natural non-cheats" and then Vivien will go for Adam. Chagz and Rosy might not like him, but Leah and Kimmi will!

And Vivien will surely be happy. And besides, if Chago doesn't like Adam, he can go to university with his effin girlfriend. God. xD

GET A LIFE LOSER. I know, right.

[ s e v e n t e e n ]

I've always wondered what'd it be like to see things from someone else's eyes. Like, be in their body, and see things the way they do. Be another person, call it as you will. It has always intrigued me. It's probably something that doesn't help my self esteem, but it's always something fun to think about. Like, just sit back, and think about what it'd be like if you were the gorgeous popular kid in the middle of the room, or if you were that lonely kid back in the corner with faint cut marks on their wrists. 

My mind has weird complexities and not many people understand this. I perceive things different that you, most likely. I'm beginning to notice how indecisive and open-minded I am. I don't care if you are gay/straight/trans etc. I don't care about your heredity, or your racial background. I will like you as long as you treat me with respect. (and if you don't scare the living shit outta me.) My indecisivenes

s will get the best of me one day. I know it. 

"Hey, where do you want to go? Movies or mall?"

"Uh...I don't care. You choose."

"I asked you. I don't care."

"Uh..well..."

-a half hour later-

"We could--no.."

"Bridget!"

"Oh...uhm. Both?"

"I can't do both!"

"Shit, well..."

"Nevermind."

"Oh...okay"

See? I'm horrible.

And now, I kind of lost my mojo, and forgot what else I wanted to say. I'll just please you with this photo.

I look like fail, thanks for noticing.

[ s i x t e e n ]

I think I'm drifting from my friends. It's really sad too. Or well, they don't like talking to me anymore. It's one of the two. I feel like they don't like me anymore, which yes, could be very true, but it's a depressing state. I've noticed that I do like talking to my online friends a lot more than my real ones. They get me better, and they definitely wouldn't ditch me at a football game for some Taco Bell. It was really shitty what they did. But, I guess what I did was pretty shitty too. The whole game I didn't once hang out with them. I hung out with the French exchange student (Marie), Jimmy, Akila, Abby, Allie, Tori, Emily, and etcetera. But truthfully, it was a lot more fun. I don't think I've ever had so much fun at a game, even if we lost. We almost won, but alas, no. It was six nothing.

But whatever, that's off the point. I realized my quote unquote friends would rather ditch me than even bother to ring me and tell me where they would be. Real friends for the lose. And I know I sound like a bitch, but I'm relieving myself of my thoughts. That's what a blog is for, yes? And I couldn't care less if they read this. It was a shitty thing they did, and it made me realize that. Also, I think they dislike me talking so much of my online friends. I bet they are jealous that I have such amazing friends online. They seemed to get annoyed today when I was all like "^_^ Vivien called me!" It's not fair. It's not my fault. These are the times I wish all non-tubers were living in their own community, and the youtubers had their own community. God, that seems so nice.

Oh, and I know this doesn't pertain to anything, but Zach, my "friend" Noah thinks he can move me up a spot on the jerk list! I told him "What the hey, no. That's Zach's thing. Only he can move me up on the list." And he said "I can beat Zach up." I bluntly told him to go hide, because Zach is mega hardcoreawesometastic and can kick his ass. Of course, he doesn't believe me. No one ever does.

Despite the shitty friend movement, let's go onto the better part. I got to talk to Vivien today, and it made me quite happy. Not like anyone except you guys understand why. I've been having a shitty week, and to see I had voice mails from her during school, it just made me happy knowing I could listen to them after school. Also, I got to hang out with Marie all day. I even got her phone number, so it's awesome. She's "Smoking Carrot." And I'm "Smiling Cow." It's wicked.

I just want to thank you guys for allowing me to be friends with you. It means so much. I know you probably would kinda probably hate me if you knew me real life. Obviously my friends do. I just wish they would comfort me like I comfort them. It's not fair.

If you're reading this, which I doubt you are, you can go do whatever. If you don't want to be my friend, TELL ME. I'm serious. But, yeh, whatever. I'm going to go be happy somewhere else. You're all just jealous because I have a French friend and online friends who actually seem to care.

But meh. That's my rant. I'm sorry. Adios.

[ f i f t e e n ] : A Best Friend

I have this best friend. He means the world to me, and I don't think I could properly survive without this boy's wonderful help. He keeps me sane at least when I really am having hard times, like now. He seems to always know what to say, and I go to him for everything, even if I don't even get the chance to hear him sing. (in which I am still convinced he is an amazing singer.) And by far, tonight he comforted me a lot. I'm so glad he is in my life, and I don't care what anyone says. He's my best friend, and always will be. I never want to lose him. I know he'll never will read this. He doesn't even know I have a blog. But, if he ever does stumble across this, I want him to know that he is one of the most amazing people I have ever met. He really is. I know many people think him and I should go out together, but they do not understand our friendship. They don't understand everything about us. We are complex figures, and we have our own way of figuring things out. My best friend is one of the few people who completely understand me as an in real life friend. I wish everyone had a friend like this. He's one of a kind, and I'm so glad to be his friend.

You mean the world to me, best friend. Please stay forever and a day. 

Love, Bridget.

[ f o u r t e e n ]

Today was good.
Until a little bit ago.

I am crying myself to sleep.
Goodnight lovelies.

[ t h i r t e e n ]

I personally love how people are all like "We didn't die ^_^!" Of course we didn't. They haven't officially launched it yet. They launch it in October. And, I'm sorry to tell you, we wouldn't die either way. I mean really. Who are are you going to believe? The amateur scientists who don't know what they are talking about and saying that we are going to be sucked into a supermassive black hole, or the experienced scientists who actually know something and say we won't die and there is nothing to fret? Well, whatever, it's your decision.

Today was not good. I'll just go with that. I feel really bad about some things, and I wonder if it's worth it to fix it. I know I can't be friends with both, while the other is bashing the other. It just doesn't work that way, now does it? No. 

I feel really sorry for Wit, and all the stuff she has to put up with. Everything has been on her shoulders lately, I just want her to take a break and chill out. Anyone want to start a "Give Whitney a Vacation Fund?" I'm sure she'd love it. :3

I'm really tired, and it's almost midnight here. I might go, so I can sleep, ya know? Mhm.

I think I'm going to bed now, I'm tired. I loves you. :]

[ t w e l v e ]

Currently I'm in Mass Communication class. It's my last class today. I really miss my buddies. Like badly. I miss Vivienkitty. I miss Chagita. I miss Leahbear. I miss Whitanny. I miss everyone. I 'specially miss the skypeover. Another one soon, yes? I sure hope so. 

The bell rings in fifteen minutes. We have a half day toady. You should be very jealous because my lip gloss is poppin. My lip gloss is flyy. I make the boys stare, as they drive byy. Hahaah.

I'm supposed to be reading the newspaper, and I really don't want to. I don't think I'm going to. So I'm going to tell you about my very short day.

Homeroom: We were there for five minutes. Nothing special.

Sports Skills: We played volleyball, and it was fun. Marie is really cool, so is Kaitlin and Abby.

Homeroom (again?): Yeah, we had to go to homeroom again. For ten minutes. Really lame.

Adv. Alg: I really hate math. Like, I always have hated it. But Mosier is cool. She's has fun while teaching it, and I guess that is what matters.

Literature Honours: Large Group. Took some notes on Characterization and Character Development.

Photography 1: Got our new assignment. Bird's eye and Worm's eye. Pretty fun.

Open: I ate lunch and hung out with Alexander, my best friend. :] It was nice.

Spanish 3M: Just review and such and got tomorrow's assignment.

Open: Walked around and then ended up hanging out in the cafeteria with Alicia, April, Wii, and Mariela. It was alright.

Earth/Space Science: Oh, it just had to be me. Tech support was in there and was installing something onto our computers. They had us log out, and soon enough log back in, except I couldn't get back in. So they had to delete my account and remake it so it would work. And I have no idea what to do know since that happened. Fail.

Mass Communications: Like I said, we're just reading the paper. I don't care for it. Whatever. So, yeah. 

That is what went down. Bell rings in seven minutes now.

And the dude is handing out a paper. What the hell?! We have ANOTHER essay to write? Oh no, nevermind. Just something to read. 

I'll see you soon at home. I miss you. :]

[ e l e v e n ] : changes.

I'm looking at old photos and such of me. And wondering if I really changed much at all. Last year at this time I was starting my freshman year. I've always wondered how much I've changed such since then. I know I changed in personality, because I started to really grasp on aspects of my life, and I just was taking them and putting good use to them. I was reshaping myself, because I believe I am supposed to. We are on this earth to shape, reshape, and fulfil the plan set before us.

I wonder how much one year has changed me.

Last year. September 2007.

• I had longer hair, with less layers. And it was highlighted.
• Bangs on the right.
  
• I didn't wear eyeliner, let alone know what it was.
  
• I wasn't poster crazy. I had no posters on my wall except for ones out of magazines.
• I was friends with people I'm not friends with now.
• I had different clothing style. (I'm sure my "black" top section was far less than it is now.)
• I had gone to one concert.
  

This year. September 2008.

• Shorter hair, but growing out. Layers. Back to natural colour.
• Bangs on the left.
  
• Eyeliner is a daily application.
• My walls are covered with random stuff I find interesting.
• I have newer, better friends.
• I have more band tops than I did then. (Far more.)
• I love concerts, and have gone to at least eight concerts and seen over twenty five bands

Yeah. It shocks me how much I've changed. For one, can you see the enhancement in my photography skills? Gone from crazy to myspace.

I don't know. I also was far more into youtube this year than I was last year. I wonder how next year I'll be.

Well, until later, bye!

[ t e n ]

I'm supposed to be doing my homework. But I'm taking a "short" break to type this.

I've been in school for about three or four weeks now, and I'm still not fully into the groove. Give me another month, and I'll be fine and dandy. Currently though, lots of stuff has happened, that I'd rather not talk about, thank you. It's really nothing major. I've just been having a plethora of thoughts running through my head.

My laptop was unlocked again. It was unlocked last weekend over labour day weekend. It's not going to be unlocked much longer, so I messed with t

he background. I hated what I did, but couldn't get the original background back. So I got the c

losest thing I could. :D Yay for trying.

My Friday schedule really sucks. I'm open only a half mod. :/

My schedule goes as this;

See how suckish fridays are? But oh well, I can deal.

So, I got invited to this photography class outside of school, and I decided to go for it. Like seriously, what harm could it do? Which is exactly why I decided to take it. I'm super excited to be taking this course. I love love love love love photography.

Hm. I don't know what else there is right now. So, I'll holler back later. Byebye.

[ n i n e ]

Good morning, my friends. I wish I had dreams like this more often. I serioulsly want to like, cry at how amazing it was. Here it goes:

I'm in photography class, right? Well, there is this new boy there that I hadn't seen before in there, and well, he's like cute ( He looks like Tony from Skins).And then Mr. Blevins lets us free to take some photos around school and such. So I'm walking around, and it's almost like he's following me. I get kind of intruiged by it. (Don't ask, it was a dream.) So I'm just taking pictures. We go back to class, nothing happens. Well, that must have been a Friday, because I go to class again on Monday, and he's there again. Blevins lets us out again and this time while I'm taking photos, the guy confronts me and talks to me. Or more so help me because I tripped. (Obvious?) And well, he ended up talking to me the rest of the mod. Then I guess I left my camera on this table. And so did he. Like, his was the camera I wanted a while back. You know, the nice new Canon's that are like blue, brown, silver, pink? Yeah, he had a blue one. And I had mine. They were right next to eachother and we weren't paying attention, and we grabbed eachother's camera. I notice this right after school, and I try to find him to give it back, but I can't. So I gave up and decided to give it back tomorrow. And well, during the ride home, I was looking at the photos he had taken. And a lot of them were of me. I didn't understand it, so while we were talking in class the next day and we switch cameras, I ask him about. He like, denies it and whatever. We go out to take more photos again, and he's talking to me the whole time. But anyway, near the end of the dream, he thinks "I don't have to worry about liking her" And I'm sure I can't read minds, but that was going through his head. And I don't know why.

I wish he was real.
I might cry.

:]

[ e i g h t ]

today i had not so much homework as i thought because i missed yesterday. i did do better about getting my homework done before i got on skype. i had three fourths of it done when i got on. and right now when i'm typing this, i'm supposed to be reading my To Kill A Mockingbird book. i really don't want to, but whatever.

i want a big skype call. hopefully whitney's laptop will be working soon. i'd like a big skype call this weekend.

Wouldn't that be epic?

<3>

i'm going to read. good night.