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I think I'm drifting from my friends. It's really sad too. Or well, they don't like talking to me anymore. It's one of the two. I feel like they don't like me anymore, which yes, could be very true, but it's a depressing state. I've noticed that I do like talking to my online friends a lot more than my real ones. They get me better, and they definitely wouldn't ditch me at a football game for some Taco Bell. It was really shitty what they did. But, I guess what I did was pretty shitty too. The whole game I didn't once hang out with them. I hung out with the French exchange student (Marie), Jimmy, Akila, Abby, Allie, Tori, Emily, and etcetera. But truthfully, it was a lot more fun. I don't think I've ever had so much fun at a game, even if we lost. We almost won, but alas, no. It was six nothing.

But whatever, that's off the point. I realized my quote unquote friends would rather ditch me than even bother to ring me and tell me where they would be. Real friends for the lose. And I know I sound like a bitch, but I'm relieving myself of my thoughts. That's what a blog is for, yes? And I couldn't care less if they read this. It was a shitty thing they did, and it made me realize that. Also, I think they dislike me talking so much of my online friends. I bet they are jealous that I have such amazing friends online. They seemed to get annoyed today when I was all like "^_^ Vivien called me!" It's not fair. It's not my fault. These are the times I wish all non-tubers were living in their own community, and the youtubers had their own community. God, that seems so nice.

Oh, and I know this doesn't pertain to anything, but Zach, my "friend" Noah thinks he can move me up a spot on the jerk list! I told him "What the hey, no. That's Zach's thing. Only he can move me up on the list." And he said "I can beat Zach up." I bluntly told him to go hide, because Zach is mega hardcoreawesometastic and can kick his ass. Of course, he doesn't believe me. No one ever does.

Despite the shitty friend movement, let's go onto the better part. I got to talk to Vivien today, and it made me quite happy. Not like anyone except you guys understand why. I've been having a shitty week, and to see I had voice mails from her during school, it just made me happy knowing I could listen to them after school. Also, I got to hang out with Marie all day. I even got her phone number, so it's awesome. She's "Smoking Carrot." And I'm "Smiling Cow." It's wicked.

I just want to thank you guys for allowing me to be friends with you. It means so much. I know you probably would kinda probably hate me if you knew me real life. Obviously my friends do. I just wish they would comfort me like I comfort them. It's not fair.

If you're reading this, which I doubt you are, you can go do whatever. If you don't want to be my friend, TELL ME. I'm serious. But, yeh, whatever. I'm going to go be happy somewhere else. You're all just jealous because I have a French friend and online friends who actually seem to care.

But meh. That's my rant. I'm sorry. Adios.