31 October, 2008

38: Halloween + NaNoWriMo!


Happy Halloween! Today was fun! The picture above was just SOME of the people at the party. It was epic crazy. It made really tired though. :/ I won't be able to stay up so late to start NaNoWriMo then.

Yes, I am doing NaNoWriMo with a lot of other people. My idea is below. Don't steal it please. DD:! IF YOU DO I WILL SHOOT YOU.

"""A young girl, roughly seventeen or eighteen, has always been known for her outstanding, unique talent in the arts. She was quiet, always quiet. Always obeyed rules. But there was this party, and she risks it all. She breaks all the rules. The next morning, her life, reputation, everything is ruined. So the next thing she knows, she is on a transatlantic flight to London. She doesn’t know anyone in London, but her fascination with the location has always known that is where she would go. She has nothing except her suitcase and art supplies. She tries to get a flat, but it’s too expensive, so she gets a little apartment in the suburbs of London. She doesn’t have any money to give her a stable life, so she has horrible living conditions, much worse than the ones back home in Omaha. She paints and photographs things, trying to sell her arts for at least some money. When that doesn’t work, she actually goes to look for a job. The girl finds a few jobs, and applies to them. She gets a job as a waitress and gets very low pay, but enough to support her bills and some food. Her manager and coworkers soon notices her arts when they come to her apartment for a small get together. The manager asks to hang her works in the restaurant, and offers many pounds. This man who comes from Manchester notices her paintings. He starts to fall in love with this girl who he thinks he knows because of her paintings. Although, he never knows whom this girl is. Later on, this same man is throwing a masquerade party, and has the restaurant that the girl works at cater the party. As the party goes on, the girl goes out to cater for the party, handing out appetizers. As she is bored, she doodles on a napkin and signs it, just leaving it on the table. This man sees it, and calls for her. Not knowing where his mysterious artist is. He looks all over during the party, not knowing who he was looking for."""

29 October, 2008

37.

I'm losing confidence in myself.

28 October, 2008

36: Tuesday, October 28th.

Today's Tuesday, and I feel like blogging. It's actually way too early to be blogging about my day. It's 8:09 in the morning, so, I probably won't finish this until later. I'm in homeroom currently. A place I'd rather not be. I'd rather be at home. Or, in fact, in Oregon where Adam and Kimmi are meeting the vlogbrothers. I shouldn't be too jealous, I hopefully get to meet them in a few weeks. Truthfully, I think I'd rather be anywhere but here.

I finished Paper Towns a few nights ago and I cried. Like literal tears down my cheeks. After I closed the book when I finished it, I looked back at my life. I actually could see how much my life is a wreck, and how much I really want to change that. Sometimes I wonder if I'm just another "paper girl" in a "paper world".

I really hate having so many depressing blogs. I should try to cheer it up a bit, although I'm not sure if I can. It all depends on my willingness to do so, and the day it is. Hm.

Sport Skills: It wasn't anything special. Just my first class. Played flag football. I suck.
Advanced Algebra: Writing Prompt. WTFX?!
Lit Honours Large Group: Poetry. :]
Photography 1: Printed photos
Open: Talked with peoples.
Spanish: Read a story and did PQAs
Open: Mr. Fauss' room. It was awesome
Earth/Space Science: Lab
Mass Communication: Boring as usual. Talking about our In Class Essay for tomorrow. :/

Yeah today went very slow, I'm glad I only have ten minutes left for today. 

I realized how to get on msn via google on these 
laptops, and now I'm talking to the infamous charlieskies. I love talking to him.

Oh, Adam and I created the land of Adamzon. He can go into more detail about it, and I'm too lazy to write much more here. Maybe a new blog will come up with all that is of Adamzon. :]

Well, the bell rings in five minutes. I'm so excited to go home. :]

xoxo ttfn. 

24 October, 2008

35: Here we are again

So. I have something important to say.

Not really, but today was pretty rad.

In Sport Skills I almost caught a fly ball when it was kicked. (playing kickball) and well, I missed and it hit my face. AND IT HURT. and then I got the ball, threw it to first, and got the guy out. Laughing and crying the whole time because I couldn't believe it.

And now I'm in Earth/Space Science and reading Paper Towns.
"The book listed hundreds of attractions you could visit, from the largest ball of twine in Darwin, Minnesota, to the world's largest ball of stamps in Omaha, Nebraska." (Green 174)

Okay. WHAT THE HELL.
I LIVE in Omaha, and I've NEVER heard of this. Could John Green be making this up? I must find out, and then go to the Ames, Iowa gathering, and tell him.

It really intrigues me.

That is all.

xoxo

23 October, 2008

34: Today.

I'm wearing an American Eagle hoodie today. Every time I wear this, I think of Adam. (youraverage) I think of him because he wears American Eagle. And because I sincerely believe he has a hoodie much like this one. I'll take a photo and put it in here after school today. 


I really wish I could get on twitter today. I want to talks to muh buddies. :[ But not, school decides to block all the good proxies so I could get on twitter. Why twitter is blocked, I have the slightest.


Well, I'm going to drink my diet wild cherry pepsi and sit in homeroom reading paper towns.
(half way through :D!)

xoxo - bridgiez.

22 October, 2008

33: I have so much homework.

I'm going to do it all tonight.

All of it.
Every single piece of it.
Even if it's due three weeks from now.
  • I'm going to do it and get it over with.
  • I'm sick of not getting it done.
  • I'm sick of missing assignments.
  • I'm sick of staying up late to get things done.
  • I'm sick of being behind.
  • I'm sick of myself.
So, if you see me online, and in an online state, please ask what I'm doing.
I'm sick of this, and I need to change.
Even if this means missing amazing epic skype calls.
Even if it means missing blogtv shows. (which I really will be depressed about)

I'm done. 
Time to pop some tictacs for solace.

On a lighter note...

Adam says: WAIT
bridget says: O.O
bridget says: WUT?
Adam says: BRIDGIEZ
Adam says: WE GOTTA CROSS THE STREET
Adam says: hold muh hand for safeties
Adam says: - hand -
bridget says: HOKAY -hand holding-
Adam says: - walk -
bridget says: -walkwalkwalk-
Adam says: k we r safez

That is only one part of the amazing conversations of Adam and I.

xoxo-bridget



20 October, 2008

32: no longer.


i no longer have train tracks.
i no longer have to be a braceface.
i no longer have to be self-conscious when i smile.
i can smile freely.

i'm so excited.
my life is content.
thank you.

chago says i look like a squirrel in this photo.
alicia at my school says i have a lisp.

i guess we'll find out on skype/videos, right?


19 October, 2008

31: something about you makes me scream.


I have one more day until no more braceface. I'm so flipping excited. today is my last day with them. I really want to know how I survived two years with these monstrosities...if that's even a word.

I can't wait to eat oodles upon oodles of candies from Halloween. I decided I'm not going Trick-er-Treating this year. My first year not doing going. I plan to stay home and just eat the candies from our bowl and then keep whatever is left. I still plan on blaring Maniac and dressing really awesome-like. I mean, why not? It's the only day you can dress up as anything you want and get away with it.

I miss summer.

I can't wait for next summer. It's going to be FANTASTIC. I really want to go to Georgia, and I got parent permission. We just need the money to send me there. Jasmine and I are planning on flying down together, and her mum is a travel agent, so we might get plane tickets cheaper. But when I'm in Georgia, yeah sure, I'll see my cousins which I only get to see once er twice a year, but I'll possibly get to see Leah and Zach! :D How amazing is that? And then I'll be able to hang out with Jasmine as well. It'll be epic.

And then, I don't know if we're going to Oregon this summer or not. But if we are, I hope it's over the time of the NW Gathering. I don't know how I'd be able to convince my parents to let me go to it, but I'd have to try.

Yeah, whatevs. Summer is a whole three forths of the year away. Now, all we have to do is wait. <3

xoxo.

17 October, 2008

30: i've never dreamt the dreams i'm dreamin' now.

charlieskies made my day today. we talked a lot today, and it was tons of fun. i love talking to that kid. he makes me smile.

charlie says: is it odd
charlie says: that my favourite show is the O C
charlie says: and my favourite music is Owl City
bridget says: I think you are obsessed with those two letters.
charlie says: Ovary Clips
bridget says: Orange Clappers
charlie says: Old Cement
bridget says: Ocean Crayfish
charlie says: Octopus Cytoplasm
bridget says: Open College
charlie says: Oh Clearly
bridget says: Oprah Cleans
charlie says: Orange Clogs
bridget says: Outstanding Charlie
charlie says: Outwitted Cleverly
bridget says: Ostentatious Cars
charlie says: Oh Crap
bridget says: Oh Charlie xD
charlie says: Obviously Confused
bridget says: Okay, clothes? (IDK?)
charlie says: Oil Clovers
bridget says: Are we done?
charlie says: i think we are
charlie says: that was fun

today was a good day because of that. otherwise, it wasn't too good. i couldn't find Paper Towns at Walmart. (My mum won't take me to Borders, wtfbbq i know.) and my mum wouldn't let me go to the last home football game. which is kinda lame, but whatever.



ahh, yeah. hopefully tomorrow is better. baibai.

xoxo.

12 October, 2008

29: I wish.

I wish I could come out with every worry, every secret, every heartbroken emotion I have.
I can't.
It's so much easier said than done.

I wish I wasn't so fragile. 
That way, my friends wouldn't have to pick up my pieces.

Truthfully, sometimes I wonder if my whole life is a dream. 
Then I wonder whose it is, and if they are enjoying it.

I wish people around me understood.

I secretly wish I never saw Post-Secret. It makes me feel inferior of myself. :/

This is odd. 

Goodnight.

xoxo -bridget.

11 October, 2008

28: Homecoming

I wasn't planning on going. but I went...
And had fun.

Chago is a lovely dancer. We had many nice dances. Zach stole me though during Crank That. But alls fair in love and war. :] I danced with Jimmy, and I was like "o_o love." He's awesome.

Hmm. They played Miley. I was mad. But they played a lot of good songs to make up for it. Like Disturbia and My Girl and some Grease songs. My requests didn't get played, but whatev. :/
A very lovely evening I much conclude.

Ooooh, the homecoming king/queen. I knew the queen would be Chaeli. But the king D: I wanted it to be Evan. But noooooooooooooooooooooooo. It had to be the stupid quarterback. Lame. Evan is cooler. He is making ALLLLL of the Romeo and Juliet costumes for this year's play. But that's that.

Chago, I had fun with you tonight. We're going to Winter Formal together, yes? I sure do hope so. :]


xoxo - bridg

[11:23:28 PM] Chago says: lmao o rly?
[11:23:36 PM] Chago says: i left my circle of dance friends
[11:23:41 PM] Chago says: and was like
[11:23:47 PM] Chago says: "i'm gonna dance alone for a bit"
[11:23:50 PM] Chago says: that was you, lmao.


I love you Chago.

09 October, 2008

27: You're a freaaaak.

Chago says:
well
Chago says:
at least you aren't in a series for five seconds before you're killed off.
Chago says:
oh wait..
bridget says:
...fuck you.


thanks. x]

08 October, 2008

26: I'm lost.

I can’t see myself going to homecoming dance. I don’t want to go, yet I do. It’s one of those mixed feeling things, because I feel as if something bad will happen if I go. I can’t see myself having a good time. I don’t have a dress. Well, I do, but it’s my old ones. Maybe my mom can tailor one of my sister’s old dresses. I think that would be cute. But with two days to do it, I don’t think so. I don’t think I am going for the sole reason that I won’t have so much fun.

I’ve noticed I’ve been focusing on my grades more this year. And I’ve been trying to give myself a future, even if it doesn’t seem like it. Yes, I’m slacking a bit, but I’m still trying to get into the swing of things. (Yes, even with three months into school.) This year is nothing like last year. I can’t breeze through my classes and half-ass everything. I actually have to think and do things. I’m trying not to mooch of friends. It’s hard, but I’m doing somewhat well.

I’ve decided I’m not staying up so late anymore, unless it’s break. I’m so tired at school, and I don’t get work done. It’s just a hassle so, I find it smarter. I’ve also been going to the IMCs, which I rarely did last year. I’m using my time efficiently, (mostly). I’m really trying to straighten myself up. At school at least

I haven’t finished my written component for earth/space science that I’m rewriting. I’m turning that in tomorrow since he said I could revise it and get a few points back. I can turn it in during one of my open mods. I’m open like all day tomorrow anyway.

I wish I could rant about things like this at school. We had to rant about anything that “grinds our gears” in World History today. I couldn’t think of anything, so I just ranted about how people need to be more open about people’s backgrounds. It was actually really short and fast. I hated myself for just speeding though it.

I need to figure out which photo is my favourite and best out of the set of 139 photos I took on Tuesday. It’s for my out of school photography class. It gets judged by a world known photographer!

My best friend is mad at me. I don’t know what to say except it’s utterly inane on his reason. He thinks I put my online friends before my real ones. First, I think he should be happy I have friends in other places than this stupid city or state. And, he should know I don’t put them ahead. I never have. Just because I talk about them, doesn’t mean I put them ahead. And, since they are ONLINE friends, I can’t really talk to them anywhere else but ONLINE. So chances are, if I’m online, I possibly am talking to them. That doesn’t mean they are put ahead.

Also, concerning that. I don’t understand how he inferred online friends from me saying I was going to do my homework and watch heroes in a conversation that was I guess “serious” even though it basically was a big put-down at the end to myself. It kind of irks me. And the whole message tomorrow saying, “You’re too busy for anything.”, irked me too. Really. Did he think I was with online friends? No. I would have responded four hours earlier if I was. I was actually gone. Actually out of my house. Having a life. I’m sorry if I wasn’t allowed.

Speaking of “lives”. Really, half my life is on the computer. And when I actually go into daylight with my IRL friends, and have a life, why am I the bad guy when I’m not there when an online or another IRL friend needed me? I don’t get it. I’m sorry I am having fun away from my computer. It is possible. I did go a whole week without one. (Considering I had no power the day I got back from the trip without internet access or a computer access.)

This is a big rant, but I guess I deserve to put one up. A lot of my blogs have been low-key. I just needed to get everything off my chest. Especially since one night turned my whole week to shit. Thanks.

I do wish I was different sometimes. I do wish my online friends realised they probably wouldn’t like me if they knew me IRL. I’m afraid to meet them for that reason. I want to meet them, but there are those things. I’m such a weird person. I don’t understand myself at times.

I’m done. Really.
Sorry for this rant/rave. I needed it off my chest.

xoxo –bridget.

05 October, 2008

25: sick of fancy titles.

I've been watching 'The Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy" for the past few nights, and I finished it tonight. It reminds me of how much I love the film. I think it's about time I go pick up that book and read it. Speaking of books, there are a few books I"m looking on getting.
1) Betrayed by P.C Cast + Kristin Cast.
2) An Abundunce of Katherines by John Green.
3) Looking for Alaska by John Green.
4) Paper Towns by John Green. (when it comes out.)

I feel so out of the loop about John Green's books, so I need to read them. Like certainly. 
I also have been writing a lot. Two stories currently. I like the titles of them :>

http://somethinguntitled.blogspot.com/
http://words-expressed.blogspot.com/

You don't have to check them out, but if you want to, whatever go ahead. But if you do, please leave comments! I love comments. :D

xoxo bridget.

02 October, 2008

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sometimes i feel international.